No matter what kind of relationship we have with our mothers, their loss is still an unfathomable one. Fourteen years later I still miss her, even though I never had her.
This is beautiful. The loss of a mother I think is especially resonant for their daughters. Three years now this May for me. I feel as though our relationship has gotten deeper since her passing. You'll like this: She visited me in a dream a few months after her death. I asked if she was catching up with her cousins in the Great Unknown. She blushed and said, no, she had been riding her horses.
What a wonderful visitation you had with your mother, Linda! I have often tuned in to try to sense where and how my mother is since her death and mostly feel her very far away. I try to challenge myself in this because even when she was right next to me she often felt far away, so I've been simply talking to her, even if I can't feel her. Every now and then I feel a wave of peace and I'm certain it is her peace.
Oh Christiane, thank you for sharing this with us. I wouldn't say I'm close to my mother...my sister and I both left at 18, as soon as we could...although I'm probably as close as she is to anyone, in a way. She had a crisis about 10 years ago and opened up then, and bless her heart, she's been open to listening to the unusual ways I have lived my life. There was a moment during the crisis when I felt the pain of realizing she will die, and I have yet to go through that portal. I'll be visiting her next month, and I'm hoping we can speak of things I've never dared to ask her. She's now 85 and slowing down a lot, so now is the time. Ask you wrote, our mothers are archetypal, practical and essential.
Thank you for this, Christiane. Your writing is always so moving and compelling. I so appreciate you sharing with us about your relationship with your mother, and her sudden death, and the reality of this most significant and often complicated relationship. Sending love and care to you.
This is beautiful. The loss of a mother I think is especially resonant for their daughters. Three years now this May for me. I feel as though our relationship has gotten deeper since her passing. You'll like this: She visited me in a dream a few months after her death. I asked if she was catching up with her cousins in the Great Unknown. She blushed and said, no, she had been riding her horses.
What a wonderful visitation you had with your mother, Linda! I have often tuned in to try to sense where and how my mother is since her death and mostly feel her very far away. I try to challenge myself in this because even when she was right next to me she often felt far away, so I've been simply talking to her, even if I can't feel her. Every now and then I feel a wave of peace and I'm certain it is her peace.
Oh Christiane, thank you for sharing this with us. I wouldn't say I'm close to my mother...my sister and I both left at 18, as soon as we could...although I'm probably as close as she is to anyone, in a way. She had a crisis about 10 years ago and opened up then, and bless her heart, she's been open to listening to the unusual ways I have lived my life. There was a moment during the crisis when I felt the pain of realizing she will die, and I have yet to go through that portal. I'll be visiting her next month, and I'm hoping we can speak of things I've never dared to ask her. She's now 85 and slowing down a lot, so now is the time. Ask you wrote, our mothers are archetypal, practical and essential.
Thank you for this, Christiane. Your writing is always so moving and compelling. I so appreciate you sharing with us about your relationship with your mother, and her sudden death, and the reality of this most significant and often complicated relationship. Sending love and care to you.
Christiane,
Our mothers were so alike. This resonated with me deeply. I miss mine. I miss yours.
Your story of losing your mother touched me so deeply, Christiane. Off to cry... ❤️